The Nationals have ended...The club maintained the overall champion and eloped with a few other trophies. The big man must be happy. A lot of ups and downs during the championship and definitely a lot of favourism. I think it's turning crap. Every referees or even juries if they don't like your club they make sure they'll make you lose. It's really nonsense. Where is the passion that all of you said that you have and for the love of the sport? Save your breath..

I was quite dissappointed with some of the athletes which i expected more from them. Not particularly in my club but some under my care. I wish she could change the way she fights and starts to learn new techniques. She has the desire to win but it's not enough for her. She has to learn more techniques in order to be more superior like her sister. Her sister don't have that much techniques but she is strong and her mentality is strong. I hope that she bears in mind whatever I had said to her yesterday. I always believe in you...

Anyway me Ollie, Nat, Jboy, Epul and Syed Azmir went to eat seafood yesterday. Syed Azmir came abit late because he has this birtday event to attend too so we started eating first and he came later. I was getting sick so cannot eat much maybe lack of sleep during the weekends. The boys eat the rest of the food.

The weekends was good. The party was superb. The competition overall good......

I was on leave yesterday.. Was too tired after the barbeque on Sunday. After the Nationals on Sunday I straight away went the the BBQ reunion. But a bit about the Nationals first, my club did quite well with the match category.. A total of 30 finalist. On top of that we bagged 6 golds in the artistic category. I hope that this year we could maintain the overall champion status.

A lot had happened during the championship on Sunday when some of the crowd turned hooligans. Throwing bottles into the arena. If I can recall this is the first time this incident happened. These people simply don't have brains or maybe just plain stupid. On top of that there were some motorcycle gang shouting out their colours. What the hell... Padahal it's only Silat. But of cos I'm wary about the surroundings. You know anything can happen..

Some of the kids lost that day. It was very hard to see them lose but sometimes this kids might have a mental block and couldnt really think about what they doing or maybe the cornerman is just a cornerman and simply don't know what to do. Some people just want the title to be a coach or a Head Coach even. It's so glamorous ain't it when you have that kind of title.

This kind of things happens every year during the Nationals. Favourism, Club pride, people wanting status, overgrown man quarrelling withe each other over small issues, referees not being fair and even all the aunties don't act like aunties. And you know what all this is because of Silat. I am not saying that I am good or anything but do think like a sane person. Always talk about the love of the sport but never do anything about it. You know what.. Love can just take you that far but in the end you still need to survive. Money will make you survive..

Anyway next week is the semis and finals. I really hope it doesn't get rowdy. I'm tired of all this. And i also hope that kakak will go slow on her son. It's ok sometimes people just make mistakes. He is really a potential athlete including his two beautiful sisters. It just take time to learn. Muhammad Ali always say,'Even the greatest got to suffer sometimes'. It's not a matter of how much hits he can take but it's how hard can he come back up and walk with his head up. I also understand it's sad to see them lose but it's a thing that we have to accept.

Anyway the bbq was great. Great time to hangout with friends and eat. The food was awesome. Everybody was there. Stayed until late that's why had to take leave on monday... hehehe

It was really a good day yesterday including the night. It was the shiet! At work is the usual la... FB 24/7 and chat all the way to chicago. It is really tiring to have a job like mine. I am happy that Hidayat is smiling again. If not he will be like moody always. I think some problems he encountered. Anyway had fun talking to the kids and wasting my time talking nonsense. Love them to death. I hope they won't pick up the nonsense that i always spit out.

I got a three way thing going on with Bit and Nana. I was like Magnum P.I. I always want to know everything., whats going on and stuff withe the kids and the people. I think there are some crushes going on in the centre. I love you.. why you not love me kind of thing hahaha... This investigation is on a hush-hush basis. So it's a secret period. Let it burst in the stomach and don't let it burst out of the mouth! You guys know who you are..

The night was good. Actually I was planning to go Holland village with Ali to chill out but got cancelled. I end up at Obar again...(tak jelak2 kape kau dzul). Anyway it was good last night. We reached at around 1am. The usual suspects la.. Syed Azmir and the sister picked Epul then they picked me and lastly Helmi. I was really busy last night really. I was like the public relations or something. Epul said,"bro skarang sua kecoh, asal lu tak datang je Obar risau!" Haha.. Anyway we did the usual stuff la bought drinks and gossiping about people's move and stuff. Suprisingly Adeeqa & Atyra was there and not to mention a lot of really realy hot girls. Almost got into a fight also last night. When Aziera told me that the guy touched her bums. But then Diki stepped in to settled the commotion. He told me that he knows what colours they wearing. Gina and her girls were there too. Love her to Death. It was good fun.

I have a thing to do for Syed Azmir's birthday party coming up. I am supposed to do the guestlist. The party will be held at Double O and it's gonna happen soon.. Woot! Woot!


4 black apples, 4 jager bombs, 3 bombshells, 1 samoka

There are a few times in life where suddenly put you to a stop to do anything. You can feel that actually you are drifting away. The emptiness inside you. It's like whatever you do won't feel right. Whenever your friends gather together and did not call you up, you feel that your friends are gonna put you aside. Thise kinds makes your thinking corrupted. But the funny things is that you can actually feel that there is a tension in between. The only thing is that they are not showing. Sometimes people have good intentions and sometimes people have bad intentions. Sometimes also people have resentment that they just need to gratify themselves. Sometimes people just think that that you are just not needed. Sometimes people are just jealous of the capabilties of what you can do. Sometimes people think that you are a threat to them. Sometimes people think that you have expired. The bottomline is that they just don't know what is going on. They just think that they know everything but the fact is they know nothing. It's just a case of favoritsm or maybe just do whatever they like kind of thing. I'm getting tired of this kind of nonsense. Everybody is acting like a kid. I don't friend you kind of thing. It's simple, if you don't like it you can talk like a man. Don't hide behind those curtains and bitchin about other people's business. Don't act like you know them, the fact is you just don't know them. They don't mean harm. The world can really be a brutal place but people are just learning. The president also allow second or third chances. Even God is forgiving.....


I friend you, why you not friend me?

I was being very emotional this few days. Maybe its just one of the days when you just feel down for no reason.

My degree is approved and the bridging course is starting next week. The thing is that where am i gonna get the money to pay for this. In total $17,120.00. Shit! Where gonna get the money. I have applied the coaches develpment grant hopefully they will approve it. On top of that haven't get pay. What else can go wrong... It didn't happen only just this month ok. This late thingy is flipping my paper. It's already been a few months like this. Sometimes I just feel like turning the pail but it is really painful to do it. To leave these kids just like that is very hard for me. All the years that I have been here I think I have developed a very tight bond with this kids. I just dunnoe what is gonna happen down here. Wish that the big guy was here.


Going crazy very soon.....