Its been a long time since i wrote some thing. I'm feeling a bit shitty these few days. I simply don't know what is wrong with myself. I feel like a woman who is going thru her period. Maybe i haven't got my break yet. But i got my break, i went fishing with yat, fakar, abg said and azman. We went for boat fishing overnight. From 8pm to 8am. That trip made me feel even shittier. Everyone got some piece of the action but me? Hell nothing!! The funny thing is that i am between fakar and ayat and i just simply don't get it. Fakar and ayat got the fishies but i don't get any.. Funny.. I just think that my luck just ran out. Thru the whole night that we were fishing i just simply caught 2 fish. One was a dog shark which malays called it yu bodoh and the other is an eel. Damn i was frustrated that night. I was the only one that did not get a real fish. I don't believe this at all. My luck was always good when i went fishing. This is the first that i had a drought in boat fishing. I was being teased the whole night by the gang but nevertheless i still have my patience but it jus simply didn't stop. It still continued the next day at PSK. I think i am not a team player, i have to go solo then i can have more end product. After writing all this, i think its just nonsense after going thru it. I think if you are reading it also you will think what the f*%k you writing. Just read it anyway. In the final analysis its between me and God, its never between me and you anyway..