I went to my cuzzy's wedding the other day wit Ja lips, Kings Jaffar and Queen Jamilah. I have this things about weddings. I just simply hate to go to weddings. Even if my mum say that,"Pegi la jul...., kan nanti boleh jumpa saudara kamu semua". At first that i told my cus that i won't be coming cos its PSK week so i will be very busy. Then she threatened me not to talk or to call her anymore cos i won't be coming to her wedding. There's is another reason also that i don't want to go to her wedding cos she is my fiance's friend. I actually don't know how it is weather to call her my fiance or ex fiance but its not been officially said yet. Its been almost two years that we have not been talking. My cuz said that she had move on and i? I don't know. I have moved on i guess. Anyway my cuz told me that she won't be coming cos she got to work. But she don't work on saturdays. I guess she trying to avoid me also. So i decided to tell my mum to finish this once and for all. My mum will talk to he mum and officially end this. I hope everything will go well. One of the reasons that made me quit fighting is this. She don't want me to even work at ssf. I don't why she does not even want me to work there. The alibi that she gave was we don't have time together. She don't even let me go fishing. What the hell... The thing is that how can i throw all this. The people around me, the kids around me is my life. They make me happy. They make me switch my mind when i was about to fall. I serve them. These people motivate me to do more. How can i leave them. What she gonna do then? Make me stay home on my big round arse? Hell no i'm gonna do that. I met Silat first before i met you, so you do the math. I would expect to get some support or whatever but i got the reverse. The thing is that i have no grudges against her or anything. I hope that she can switch her mind and not to think about herself everytime. By the way, i still went to my cousin's wedding and congratulate her and her new husband. I ate then i left with Ja lips with the king's car. Ja Lips got to go work and i had to rest for PSK day.