As days pass by i just feel more and more lost of what i am doing. I just don't know weather i lost interest or i am just simply tired. It's always the same thing, train, eat, work. Everyday is the same, the people is the same even the smell is the same. I lost my touch with "The Watch Ones" and the most thing that i loved most, my fishing! I hate it when this feeling comes to play. I really love my work and not to mention about the people i work with. I love them more than my life. Sometimes people just have doubts about people's honesty and intentions to their work but i belief what goes around comes around. For example, sometimes it just didn't matter weather people come for training or not. There must be a reason to why people don't come for training. We have to believe in people rather than just accusing them for whatever reason. I believe in the people that i work with. I believe that they will succeed in what they are doing and how much they want it. I always tell myself that i must be there whenever they need me no matter what the situation is. Sometimes i pity them because of the path that they choose. They train so hard and in the end they got nothing. I don't know how long can they sustain the pain and in the end lost interest in everything. I think that they deserve something better than this. Also we cannot blame the government because the sport is like that. Only the strongest survive. It's just a matter of time till they get their chance to shine. I think the reason why i am still here is because of the people. I just simply love the people that i work with. It just don't matter........